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During these years in which i have sinned I have also memorized 10 juz of the Qur’an: that didn’t come easily, nor without determination, and i would bet that is more than most people who are reading this. The most helpful solution overall i found was going cold turkey with the internet: cutting it off completely.I don’t know if that makes me a “better” porn addict than the next porn addict. It severely restricted my access to pornography, and though the addiction didn’t cut off completely, it was definitely a practical step in the right direction.The previous post on “The Secret Life of Husbands“, part of MM’s “Sex & the Muslim Ummah” series, was sort of a milestone post.It elicited powerful responses, and led to some of the most beneficial discussions on MM.It was like i’d crossed a threshold, stepped over an important line.And unfortunately, having crossed that line, i haven’t looked back and have used the card numerous times since. You promise yourself for a long time that you won’t cross a certain line, but then you do, and it becomes easy to repeat that sin again.
But the internet made everything accessible to me, and i could see what i wanted and when i wanted, all in the privacy of my own home.
But having crossed that line only once advances you to the next level of sinfulness.
So you’re first mistake is looking at a woman lustfully.
I’ve prayed those prayers in the middle of the night when i thought to myself, “man, i wish i could pray with that much khushoo’ in every salaah” and i made salaam and thought i’d never return to that sin, but then a week, or two weeks later, i was back at it.
But let this next event sum it up for you: me standing in Mecca asking Allah to help me stop committing this sin, asking Allah to kind of like flick off a switch and just bring it to a stop, because i am mentally fatigued by the daily battle inside me between my shameful desires and my Muslim conscience, and i just want it to stop but its proving too difficult right now.